Today as I celebrate another birthday. I am thinking back a few years to my 30th birthday and how hard I took it. In my mind I was suddenly old and kept wondering where had 30 come from? That day I was thinking there was no way I could be 30 yet. I was going to fly to the moon and conquer the world by then. I had such big plans! It took me a while to overcome my dismay at turning 30.
I did eventually realize maybe I had not conquered my adolescent dreams, but what I do have is wonderful!
It reminds me of the Montgomery Gentry Song- Something To Be Proud Of!
If you are not familiar with the song you should listen closely to the lyrics. Today as I mark another year off, I don't have the same internal conflict over getting older. I am proud of the things I have accomplished in my life. Proud of my little family and look forward to the years ahead. I might not have done everything I set out to do but there is always next year and if I would have done things differently who knows where I would be now. Maybe I would have missed out on my handsome husband or beautiful children. The path I chose and the place I am in my life right now. This is a great place to be! I am not going to live in a world of what ifs or have regrets for the things I didn't do. I am going to look back and see just how far I have come and just how lucky I am.
This reminds me of another song this one by Loanstar- My Front Porch Looking In. I am on a music kick today I guess! Standing on front porch, looking at the life I have and feeling oh so lucky today. The only thing missing is my handsome husband. But his love is always present! Next year when my husband is home and we celebrate my next birthday, I will look back at this year and this deployment as another place to be proud of my accomplishments.
Today I will choose to not look at it as another year past in a bad way, but in a good one. Another year of accomplishment another year of lessons. I have many more ahead to do things better in some areas and pat myself on the back for jobs well done in others!
If I count my age by blessings not years, then I am older then dirt! :)
I might still joke about my age being stuck at 25 but in honesty age is not as important to me as it once was. Humm, maybe its a sign of age that you care less about your age. I'll contemplate that on another day!
Counting my blessings is the best way I can think of to spend my birthday!
I am very lucky! I hope when you celebrate your next birthday you forget the inner conflicts of age and remember to look at the years as years of blessings past, present and future! Besides I really don't feel any older today then I did yesterday! :)